Chasing Heaven

Assalamualaikum and Hello, Unfortunate event happened to us lately. I was miscarried at 5th weeks.  It all started when I fell, collapsed at the kitchen. The husband wasn't home and Hazeeq was asleep - I have no idea for how long did I lay on the cold floor.  I regain consciousness when I heard somebody bang on the sliding door; it was him, couldnt enter the house because he didn't bring the keys. There was a tint of pale blood but I thought my period is about to start.  Silly me. I should do the UPT. Thin blood continues up to two days.  And later, we lost it all.  That was the moment when I knew I was pregnant. Too late.  The husband came to fetch me at the clinic and the first thing I do was apologize.  We should still have the baby.  This time, I should be blame. Forgive me, husband. xx

Assalamualaikum and Hello, One thing I really love about this man is; he could crack silly jokes and that never fails to make me laugh. Well maybe because I can laugh easily but ultimately, he entertains me 😊 Couple of weeks ago we went for groceries shopping together.  Something that I must keep in the kitchen is - Sirap Jalen.  Must be Jalen. Jalen only. Because Hazeeq loves it and refuse to drink other sirap brand.  Lol. Picky much. The husband walked behind me with Hazeeq in the cart, meanwhile I strolled the alley trying to recall what are the things to pick. And at the cordial drinks shelves: No Jalen! Panic-stricken Hanis rushed to her husband (he was joyfully singing with Hazeeq): “Awak, sirap Jalen dah takde! Biasa kat rak situ tapi dah takde lagi dah!” me. “Takde? Sure? Cube try brand Ukhwah pulak” husband. In my head, ape pelik brand air letak nama Ukhwah. And I never see any Ukhwah brand before. “...

Assalamualaikum and Hello,  I woke up at 3a.m, cut some onion, garlic, chillies and anchovies and prepared nasi goreng for Sahur, wait for the husband to reach home, put those freshly cooked fried rice onto my favorite white plate while he took a quick shower, make sure he finished the food, let him sleep and here I am typing the very first entry for Chasing Heaven.  Why am I doing this? My late husband used to asked me: Kenapa dalam blog you semua cerita tentang yang sweet sweet je pasal kita? Kenapa you tak cerita pasal kita bergaduh, you merajuk, yang macam tu? And I still remember what I said: Sebab  I nak baca balik kenangan yang manis manis dengan you bila kita bergaduh or bila I merajuk. So then I know how much do we love each other. So basically that is the reason for having Chasing Heaven.  I want to remember only the good things, sweet moments; desperately. I may not be a good wife, so this blog is one of my effort to teach ...