In The Name of Allah The Most Merciful

Assalamualaikum and Hello, 

I woke up at 3a.m, cut some onion, garlic, chillies and anchovies and prepared nasi goreng for Sahur, wait for the husband to reach home, put those freshly cooked fried rice onto my favorite white plate while he took a quick shower, make sure he finished the food, let him sleep and here I am typing the very first entry for Chasing Heaven. 

Why am I doing this?

My late husband used to asked me:

Kenapa dalam blog you semua cerita tentang yang sweet sweet je pasal kita? Kenapa you tak cerita pasal kita bergaduh, you merajuk, yang macam tu?

And I still remember what I said:

Sebab  I nak baca balik kenangan yang manis manis dengan you bila kita bergaduh or bila I merajuk. So then I know how much do we love each other.

So basically that is the reason for having Chasing Heaven. 

I want to remember only the good things, sweet moments; desperately.

I may not be a good wife, so this blog is one of my effort to teach myself to be one. 

Insya Allah. 

And maybe, when I am no longer in this world, this could be one of the medium for my kid(s) to keep on cherish whatever is left. 

xx