Chasing Heaven

Assalamualaikum and Hello, Being a working mother is not easy. There are so many things that I need to take care of. The work itself already drains me out. And when I reached home, I need to do the housechores, kemas this and that, buang sampah all the things; my energy depleted. Seriously I'm that weak. Another thing is, this nauseous feeling and vomiting till nothing left in my stomach. Lol. Baby baby, please be kind to mommy. Love you, Luv. All these thing somehow make me realize one important thing. Before I got pregnant, my daily routine after work includes cleaning, do laundry, go buy groceries, prepare dinner no matter what time it is; may it be 8pm, 10pm, 1am, 3am, 4am - as the husband working on shift.. so, yeah. I am quite consistent in making his tummy filled with home cooked meals. I mean, tak semua working mother and wife yang boleh bangun masak lemak cili padi, asam pedas ayam, buttermilk chicken, or as easy as nasi goreng kampung when she got an opt...

Assalamualaikum and Hello, Alhamdulillah, I have a tiny heart that beats inside me. It all begin with tenderness that I felt; which I mistakenly thought as a normal premenstrual syndrome. And remembering back my previous miscarriage experience, I quickly went out and bought couple of pregnancy test strips (just in case). At first I didn't see any double lines, so, nahhh not preggie. Just a normal PMS sign. However, after I took a shower and took a glimpse of the strip again; well hello there's two lines! So basically that's how I discovered that I am pregnant. I am hoping to have a safe and happy pregnancy. I would like to enjoy my pregnancy moment to the fullest; because it is something that I never had a chance to have before this. For everything that would come in the crossroads, I want to and I will prioritize my baby and me first. Insya Allah. I am really hoping to have a happy pregnancy. I want to pamper myself a lot, take care of my emotional heal...

Assalamualaikum and Hello, My favorite time of the day: bedtime; of course. It is the time where Hazeeq is in the most relax condition, most calm, and to see him slowly fall asleep after susu time is totally priceless.  I have added few routine before his bedtime recently.  One, super quick shower to make him feels clean, fresh and comfy.  Two, asking him "Do you love Papa? Do you love Mommy?" and he said Yes to both of the questions (read: Happy).  Three, kiss and salam Mommy and Papa (if Papa is not out for work) before going to the bed.  Four, instead of me who recite doa tidur, I would ask him to recite doa by himself together with 'goodnight', 'assalamualaikum' and 'I love you'.  I would constantly asked him about loving us; the parents, because I am nurturing him to always love his Mommy and Papa (and Daddy) seamlessly. In my humble opinion, the most important thing that kids at this age should have and mastered ...

Assalamualaikum and Hello, A mother is always a mother; may it be stepmother, biological mother, foster mother, and anything that people call it. Being a mother, I always have that protective, caring side of me towards all the kids around me. Even dengan anak jiran pun I bahasakan diri I as mommy. And yes, termasuklah dengan anak staff kedai waffle yang I pergi tadi. Motherhood creates you a wholesome person. Same thing about nurturing Hazeeq about his fathers. I tak pernah didik Hazeeq untuk membezakan kasih Daddy and Papa. Daddy is Daddy, Papa is Papa; both men deserves equal love and respect. Daddy has left us due to terminal illness; mommy has done the best that mommy could do to save him, but Allah loves him more. Despite the sadness and tears, Allah send Papa as a gift for us. So we have someone who will protect us, to guide us, to love us and for us to have a complete family that we never had the chance to have. No such thing as bapa tiri or bapa kandung love. Resp...

Assalamualaikum and Hello :) The last 29th May was my son's third birthday. How time flies, I still remember the moment I knew I was pregnant :) Me and the husband took him to Aquaria KLCC to celebrate the day. Well, I think by exposing him to new things new surroundings and give him hands on experience is a really good thing to do to improve his senses . Mommy and Papa loves you, son.  That arm harness is totally useful. He is free to walk around but still in the safe radius. Love this photo taken by Papa. For those who know me, they would definitely realized that I am a sucker for white shirts. Lol. It was tiring, but we really have fun. Especially Papa.  Happy Birthday sayang Mommy. Thank you for making me a mother. Thank you for teaching me how to be a better person. Thank you for teaching me about patience and determination. Mommy doakan semoga Hazeeq Redzuan sentiasa dalam lindungan Allah dari segi kesihatan, keselamatan, dilindungi dari perka...

Assalamualaikum and Hello, Unfortunate event happened to us lately. I was miscarried at 5th weeks.  It all started when I fell, collapsed at the kitchen. The husband wasn't home and Hazeeq was asleep - I have no idea for how long did I lay on the cold floor.  I regain consciousness when I heard somebody bang on the sliding door; it was him, couldnt enter the house because he didn't bring the keys. There was a tint of pale blood but I thought my period is about to start.  Silly me. I should do the UPT. Thin blood continues up to two days.  And later, we lost it all.  That was the moment when I knew I was pregnant. Too late.  The husband came to fetch me at the clinic and the first thing I do was apologize.  We should still have the baby.  This time, I should be blame. Forgive me, husband. xx

Assalamualaikum and Hello, One thing I really love about this man is; he could crack silly jokes and that never fails to make me laugh. Well maybe because I can laugh easily but ultimately, he entertains me 😊 Couple of weeks ago we went for groceries shopping together.  Something that I must keep in the kitchen is - Sirap Jalen.  Must be Jalen. Jalen only. Because Hazeeq loves it and refuse to drink other sirap brand.  Lol. Picky much. The husband walked behind me with Hazeeq in the cart, meanwhile I strolled the alley trying to recall what are the things to pick. And at the cordial drinks shelves: No Jalen! Panic-stricken Hanis rushed to her husband (he was joyfully singing with Hazeeq): “Awak, sirap Jalen dah takde! Biasa kat rak situ tapi dah takde lagi dah!” me. “Takde? Sure? Cube try brand Ukhwah pulak” husband. In my head, ape pelik brand air letak nama Ukhwah. And I never see any Ukhwah brand before. “...