Chasing Heaven

Assalamualaikum and Hello everyone :) The tummy is growing bigger each day and Alhamdulillah I am now in my 5th months. Yesterday me and the husband was watching The Bachelor Japan Edition. Basically the programe was about a bunch of ladies who compete among each other to win one man's love. Yeah that guy might be rich and famous. lol. And that dude will date all the ladies to figure out if he is compatible with her wtf I feel like this programe is tacky. So I popped a question to my husband: "If you were about to choose, would you choose someone who loves you; or would you choose someone who respects you?" The husband took some time to think. And while he was making descision, I went to the dressing room and prepare his work attire. You know what was his answer? He said would pick someone who loves him. There is no wrong or right answer as the question was about personal choice. But as for me, I would pick someone who respect me. Why? We easily confus...

Aku tak pernah mencari. Apatah lagi mencuri. Hanya berjalan sendiri, Dan kataku cuma monolog sepi. Tapi dia datang sendiri. Bawa apa pun tak ku pasti. Dan dari itu, langsung tak pergi pergi. Yang mencuri itu bukan aku. Yang mengambil itu bukan aku. Kerna ku tau peritnya hujung penyatuan. Yang merentap cinta lalu seperti tiada apa. Iya dia datang sendiri. Ku usir pergi tapi masih menanti. Usah kau bilang aku mencuri. Kerana Tuhan temukan kami. Anonymous, 2015.

Assalamualaikum and Hello, Being a working mother is not easy. There are so many things that I need to take care of. The work itself already drains me out. And when I reached home, I need to do the housechores, kemas this and that, buang sampah all the things; my energy depleted. Seriously I'm that weak. Another thing is, this nauseous feeling and vomiting till nothing left in my stomach. Lol. Baby baby, please be kind to mommy. Love you, Luv. All these thing somehow make me realize one important thing. Before I got pregnant, my daily routine after work includes cleaning, do laundry, go buy groceries, prepare dinner no matter what time it is; may it be 8pm, 10pm, 1am, 3am, 4am - as the husband working on shift.. so, yeah. I am quite consistent in making his tummy filled with home cooked meals. I mean, tak semua working mother and wife yang boleh bangun masak lemak cili padi, asam pedas ayam, buttermilk chicken, or as easy as nasi goreng kampung when she got an opt...

Assalamualaikum and Hello, Alhamdulillah, I have a tiny heart that beats inside me. It all begin with tenderness that I felt; which I mistakenly thought as a normal premenstrual syndrome. And remembering back my previous miscarriage experience, I quickly went out and bought couple of pregnancy test strips (just in case). At first I didn't see any double lines, so, nahhh not preggie. Just a normal PMS sign. However, after I took a shower and took a glimpse of the strip again; well hello there's two lines! So basically that's how I discovered that I am pregnant. I am hoping to have a safe and happy pregnancy. I would like to enjoy my pregnancy moment to the fullest; because it is something that I never had a chance to have before this. For everything that would come in the crossroads, I want to and I will prioritize my baby and me first. Insya Allah. I am really hoping to have a happy pregnancy. I want to pamper myself a lot, take care of my emotional heal...

Assalamualaikum and Hello, My favorite time of the day: bedtime; of course. It is the time where Hazeeq is in the most relax condition, most calm, and to see him slowly fall asleep after susu time is totally priceless.  I have added few routine before his bedtime recently.  One, super quick shower to make him feels clean, fresh and comfy.  Two, asking him "Do you love Papa? Do you love Mommy?" and he said Yes to both of the questions (read: Happy).  Three, kiss and salam Mommy and Papa (if Papa is not out for work) before going to the bed.  Four, instead of me who recite doa tidur, I would ask him to recite doa by himself together with 'goodnight', 'assalamualaikum' and 'I love you'.  I would constantly asked him about loving us; the parents, because I am nurturing him to always love his Mommy and Papa (and Daddy) seamlessly. In my humble opinion, the most important thing that kids at this age should have and mastered ...

Assalamualaikum and Hello, A mother is always a mother; may it be stepmother, biological mother, foster mother, and anything that people call it. Being a mother, I always have that protective, caring side of me towards all the kids around me. Even dengan anak jiran pun I bahasakan diri I as mommy. And yes, termasuklah dengan anak staff kedai waffle yang I pergi tadi. Motherhood creates you a wholesome person. Same thing about nurturing Hazeeq about his fathers. I tak pernah didik Hazeeq untuk membezakan kasih Daddy and Papa. Daddy is Daddy, Papa is Papa; both men deserves equal love and respect. Daddy has left us due to terminal illness; mommy has done the best that mommy could do to save him, but Allah loves him more. Despite the sadness and tears, Allah send Papa as a gift for us. So we have someone who will protect us, to guide us, to love us and for us to have a complete family that we never had the chance to have. No such thing as bapa tiri or bapa kandung love. Resp...